Sunday, February 20, 2005 @ 12:33 AM
i've changed another blogskin due to the unview skin which i've got earlier on after some time...
haiz ~ disappearance during this period of time. many things jus happened to me... all sadden stuff...
chinese new year seemed the same to me. chu 1 evening went to msia and bai nian..probably tt's the only time when i really enjoyed myself till now...we had dinner followed by playing of fire crackers and fire works..how lovely those fireworks r...too bad he's not beside me to watch it with me. came back on chu 2 and headed to work on chu 3.....
over the last weekends, busy at germz's hse for the flower wrapping to be sold on Vday. many conflicts in between...i dun wish to list it out again...it jus hurts...
there's also problems with my bf... he was telling me he feels that our relationship is turning sour..cos we seldom meet up..and i seem to heck like that...he says he only knows me well but dun understand me well... i'm loss of words...i wanna retrieve this relationship.......but thinking...?!how i wish i can turn back time..be a better gf...but i guess..it's too laTe..i'm not gd enuff to him..always argue and bicker with him...
though now neither of us said anything...still in the status of "in a relationship" ...he isn't whom i noe initially liao..not the dear who'll call me everyday after his work...not the dear who'll joke ard with me..make me laugh...whom i can share my woes to...not the dear who'll say he loves me...
when i asked him wat he thinks abt this relationship...his reply was a merely "i dunno...." it's been more than 3 weeks since our last meeting... time and time i asked him up..excuses will be given..
it's hurting me but i jus kept quiet...my smiles r gone...to wheRe?!i dunno..mayb cupid jus steal it away for some other happy couples out theRe.......
friends did ask me to jus give up..i refused..thinking there's still slight chance between us..as long as i dun give up...but kid....have u already given up on me?!
